I have noticed that I experience phases in my life that aren't directly linked to any specific event or season. I am a teacher, so I tend to notice trends and times of year, but I will experience bouts of insomnia for random months where although I'm tired, I'll stay up till 2AM even on a school night - sometimes being productive, sometimes just playing. This may be the product of such an episode, but we'll see.
Some past information is that I have recently begun to find myself - even though I didn't know I was lost... I always thought I had a firm grasp of my desires and path. I was even look forward to birthdays, which is against 'girl code', and had no problem with my age. I've had older female friends tell me turning 30 was great - you hit a level of understand and things made sense - the silly 'distractions' or indecision of the previous years melted away - or that's at least how it came across. And for the most part, the first year was. And now, within the past month, it's a roller coaster of emotions.
However, looking on other blogs, I ran across these lyrics
"Sometimes that mountain y0u've been climbing is just a grain of sand,
And what you've been out there searching for forever, is in your hands."
Yes, the motto of this year has been themes or patterns or maybe even deja vu - most things I encounter, are repeated blatantly many times throughout my week. Perhaps the universe is trying to teach me something and I'm just not paying attention - hopefully I figure it out before the anvil has to drop on me.
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