So, again as I said at the beginning, I'm new at this, but in the true spirit of experimentation, I've done research. I've been looking at other entries from people around the world and I am by no way ready to be as verbose as some individuals, but I'll give it the old college try...

My thoughts are leaning toward blessings and friends. I have been asking for help this year, as I previously mentioned, and as a result, great people have been thrust into my path. I'm actually establishing some new, possibly long term friends. Though at times, it feels like starting a romantic relationship. Since I overanalyze everything anyway, I have the paranoia that I'm trying too hard or imposing on their time. I just want people to chat with or random hanging around with. Most of my friends that I did that with have moved too far away to make that possible. I do like my alone time, but having those people who want you around enough to include you, but miss you when you're not there or notice when something is wrong, have almost disappeared from my immediate spectrum. Somedays it's gotten to the point that I just want comfort...physical closeness to another human being. Slowly true friends are making a return and that's nice. I don't want to be a woman who lives only vicariously through my books or my students. I just wish I knew that I wasn't imposing without having to come out and ask......